...and now for something COMPLETELY different. - 12/02/13 10:23 PM
So, as some of you guys know - either through my postings here, or through in-person chats that we had over the summer during "100 Toothpicks" - for the past year or so, I've sort of been going through a personal identity crisis (albeit in a good way).
For anyone reading this that doesn't know my somewhat odd life situation - about a year ago, I was fortunate enough to reach a place in my life where I suddenly found myself completely free of any sort of financial obligations. My house was paid off, I had a nice retirement nest egg, I had no bills other than just recurrent things like power and phone, no kids to help out with college plans... I was just free and clear at the ripe old age of 39.
That sounds awesome and - don't get me wrong - although it totally is... it's also a little bit scary. To coin an odd phrase - "With no responsibility... comes great power". For the first time in my life, I literally didn't have to do anything. If I wanted to - at any point - I could just walk away from my job and do anything else I wanted for a living.
The problem was... I had no idea what that was.
For a time I had been thinking that I might go to school for music and parlay my interest in the piano into something monetize-able, but - if I were to be absolutely honest - my love for piano outweighs my talent for it by a long shot. No... piano is a great hobby, but it's not really my dream. So what is?
My wife knew what she wanted. After a decade and a half of working in finance, she decided that she wanted to say goodbye to the corporate world and start studying massage therapy. A radical departure, right? Nevertheless, it was her dream, so... taking about a half year... she laid out the numbers, figured out a game-plan, made contacts for post-school employment, enrolled in school and... voila! As of this past August, she left her job and is now a full time student heading toward her licensing, with a job already lined up after graduation.
Me, on the other hand... not so much.
"Well," Mrs. Nihil said last May, "what are some things that make you happy? Why don't you indulge that for a bit while you figure things out?"
"Hmmm... well, I love travel... I like meeting and talking with new and interesting people... I'm very fond of a well-made martini".
"OK... well... you're pretty creative... is there anyway you could maybe combine those into something?"
Heh.
Well... as 25 of you found out over this past summer... sometimes a rather insane combination of elements like that can yield up some amazing results. "100 Toothpicks" was a blast (and will be again when the weather warms up next year). Not a day went by over those three and a half months that I didn't marvel at how what had seemed like an impossible task was slowly coming to fruition through the combination of a bit of focus and planning... and a whole lot of unwavering belief.
It was - in no small part - that realization that no dream, no matter how ludicrous, was unachievable if you just took the right steps to make it a reality, that helped me finally come to a decision. For as much fun as I was having meeting all you guys - beneath it all, there was a mercenary aspect to my travels. Many of the conversations I've had with you guys over this past year, along with - of course - the conversations I've had with family and friends, have helped me come to a clearer picture of what the next phase of my life is going to hold. It was something that I've often thought about over the years, but always thought it was too radical a thing to pursue
But... after a year of introspection and contemplation - and the help of many people, including you guys - I've made a decision regarding my next career move, and... as with most "Nihil Productions"... it's a freaking doozy.
Ahem.
In a heretofore unexpected turn of events, I am - against all odds - going to transition out of the corporate world... and become an Air Rescue Helicopter Pilot.
Voice of Self-Doubt: "Wh...? You're...? Th... that... that... No offense there, Ex, but that is absolutely ludicrous!"
No... driving around the country hitting up dozens of random comic book fans to buy me a drink was "absolutely ludicrous".![smile smile](/forums/images/graemlins/default_dark/smile.gif)
Letting go of any and all misgivings, fulfilling a lifelong dream of flying, and getting into a line of work where I can help people far more than I ever could in my current situation - while most definitely unexpected - is, nevertheless, the thing that I am going to do... again - with focus, planning, and a whole lot of unwavering belief.
Voice of Self-Doubt:"Bah. That's all fine and good... but do you have any idea how long something that takes?"
Yup... it takes longer each day that I don't start making it happen.
Voice of Self-Doubt: "Hmmph. And when exactly are you starting this ridiculous venture?"
"Starting?" To paraphrase Alan Moore: I'm not a Republic serial villain, voice of self-doubt. Do you really think I'd tell you my next move if there remained the slightest chance of you affecting its outcome?
I started three weeks ago.
![[Linked Image]](http://i253.photobucket.com/albums/hh48/exnihil_album/skycaptain.jpg)
Voice of Self Doubt: "You know what? Fine! Chase your loony dreams, Ex... but I hope you know this isn't going to do any favors for your hairstyle. It gets mighty windy around helicopters"
![[Linked Image]](http://i253.photobucket.com/albums/hh48/exnihil_album/skycaptainandthecrisisofthepomade.jpg)
Oh, my god... he's right! Maybe I haven't thought this through!
For anyone reading this that doesn't know my somewhat odd life situation - about a year ago, I was fortunate enough to reach a place in my life where I suddenly found myself completely free of any sort of financial obligations. My house was paid off, I had a nice retirement nest egg, I had no bills other than just recurrent things like power and phone, no kids to help out with college plans... I was just free and clear at the ripe old age of 39.
That sounds awesome and - don't get me wrong - although it totally is... it's also a little bit scary. To coin an odd phrase - "With no responsibility... comes great power". For the first time in my life, I literally didn't have to do anything. If I wanted to - at any point - I could just walk away from my job and do anything else I wanted for a living.
The problem was... I had no idea what that was.
For a time I had been thinking that I might go to school for music and parlay my interest in the piano into something monetize-able, but - if I were to be absolutely honest - my love for piano outweighs my talent for it by a long shot. No... piano is a great hobby, but it's not really my dream. So what is?
My wife knew what she wanted. After a decade and a half of working in finance, she decided that she wanted to say goodbye to the corporate world and start studying massage therapy. A radical departure, right? Nevertheless, it was her dream, so... taking about a half year... she laid out the numbers, figured out a game-plan, made contacts for post-school employment, enrolled in school and... voila! As of this past August, she left her job and is now a full time student heading toward her licensing, with a job already lined up after graduation.
Me, on the other hand... not so much.
"Well," Mrs. Nihil said last May, "what are some things that make you happy? Why don't you indulge that for a bit while you figure things out?"
"Hmmm... well, I love travel... I like meeting and talking with new and interesting people... I'm very fond of a well-made martini".
"OK... well... you're pretty creative... is there anyway you could maybe combine those into something?"
Heh.
Well... as 25 of you found out over this past summer... sometimes a rather insane combination of elements like that can yield up some amazing results. "100 Toothpicks" was a blast (and will be again when the weather warms up next year). Not a day went by over those three and a half months that I didn't marvel at how what had seemed like an impossible task was slowly coming to fruition through the combination of a bit of focus and planning... and a whole lot of unwavering belief.
It was - in no small part - that realization that no dream, no matter how ludicrous, was unachievable if you just took the right steps to make it a reality, that helped me finally come to a decision. For as much fun as I was having meeting all you guys - beneath it all, there was a mercenary aspect to my travels. Many of the conversations I've had with you guys over this past year, along with - of course - the conversations I've had with family and friends, have helped me come to a clearer picture of what the next phase of my life is going to hold. It was something that I've often thought about over the years, but always thought it was too radical a thing to pursue
But... after a year of introspection and contemplation - and the help of many people, including you guys - I've made a decision regarding my next career move, and... as with most "Nihil Productions"... it's a freaking doozy.
Ahem.
In a heretofore unexpected turn of events, I am - against all odds - going to transition out of the corporate world... and become an Air Rescue Helicopter Pilot.
Voice of Self-Doubt: "Wh...? You're...? Th... that... that... No offense there, Ex, but that is absolutely ludicrous!"
No... driving around the country hitting up dozens of random comic book fans to buy me a drink was "absolutely ludicrous".
![smile smile](/forums/images/graemlins/default_dark/smile.gif)
Letting go of any and all misgivings, fulfilling a lifelong dream of flying, and getting into a line of work where I can help people far more than I ever could in my current situation - while most definitely unexpected - is, nevertheless, the thing that I am going to do... again - with focus, planning, and a whole lot of unwavering belief.
Voice of Self-Doubt:"Bah. That's all fine and good... but do you have any idea how long something that takes?"
Yup... it takes longer each day that I don't start making it happen.
Voice of Self-Doubt: "Hmmph. And when exactly are you starting this ridiculous venture?"
"Starting?" To paraphrase Alan Moore: I'm not a Republic serial villain, voice of self-doubt. Do you really think I'd tell you my next move if there remained the slightest chance of you affecting its outcome?
I started three weeks ago.
![[Linked Image]](http://i253.photobucket.com/albums/hh48/exnihil_album/skycaptain.jpg)
Voice of Self Doubt: "You know what? Fine! Chase your loony dreams, Ex... but I hope you know this isn't going to do any favors for your hairstyle. It gets mighty windy around helicopters"
![[Linked Image]](http://i253.photobucket.com/albums/hh48/exnihil_album/skycaptainandthecrisisofthepomade.jpg)
Oh, my god... he's right! Maybe I haven't thought this through!
![wink wink](/forums/images/graemlins/default_dark/wink.gif)